Crestfallen

[MiSun]

I take the bait to stop the time for eternity

everytime I see you smiling, I feel the blithness

becoming a part of me, but my heart holds a sea

that lays in the depths of it were gloomy memories be.

I'm feeling how I abandon myself to despair,

whether it's my faith or the strong mistrust

my body and mind's still obtaining, this affair

it makes no sense for me, because I'm controlled by frust.

I break lose of this chains that held me for so long

in their cold, emotionless steel, I'm taking comfort

to talk to you a few words, get to know you among

the school lessons, show you the intellect of my sort.

So cheery while I'm talking to you that I do not

realize I'm really acting in this kind of way,

but I like my new ,,I", so I'm holding what I got

to build up a friendship that'll have a longer stay.

Like a gardener I see it blooming and growing

in the souls garden and you'll take care of my senses

that were oppressed by this lasting nostalgic feelin'

in dependence on all of my abandoned chances.